Today I'm thankful for a little peace and quiet. I love my husband. I love my son. I love all my friends and family.
But some times, some days, I just need them to all go away. At least for a little bit. I need time to not have to interact with the outside world. Time to get lost in my own head, with my own thoughts. Or lost in the thoughts of another, in a book or story. Or mindlessly play puzzle games until I'm moving more on autopilot and anything and my mind drifts elsewhere.
I never realized how much "alone" time I got when I was working. I got 20 to 30 minutes each way every morning and evening, well almost, to myself. To listen to the radio or not. To think my thoughts as I drove down the highway. To prepare myself or unwind from dealing with people all day long.
You'd think I'd have plenty of that now that I'm home all day. You'd be sadly mistaken. My mornings are spent with my boys. Getting Boo ready for school and out the door and spending a little quality time with just Gak and I until he's got to get ready for work. Then either I've got to pick up a boy at lunch and we spend the afternoon together doing all kinds of things or I use the time to work on that whole finding a job thing, or errands and dealing with people in general. There aren't many afternoons that I get a nice chunk of time to myself to just escape the world for a few.
Also, I haven't been getting up at the crack of dawn. Gak has. And therefore I stay asleep, or mostly asleep, in my warm, cozy bed trying to eek out a few moments of me time.
But, Wednesday nights, at least most Wednesday nights in theory, I get a couple of hours all to myself. Boo is in bed around 7:30 or so. Gak goes to Scott's house for gaming. And I, get some blessedly quiet "alone" time.
So, pardon me while I take advantage of a sleeping boy and an "empty" apartment. I don't know if I'm going to play with yarn or get lost in a book, probably both before the evening is done.
Peace to all and may you get the quiet you need.